back in the saddle

So I find myself back in the states, back in strangely familiar but interestingly changed myrtle beach. I find myself making reality checks everyday….wow, this is my life now. I find myself lingering on the front porch of my cute little apartment thinking ‘how odd, this is my home now.’ It seems as if im simply on a vacation from the life I carved out in japan. I have moments of deep nostalgia brought on by random occurrences, a sighting of kanji characters scrolled across the tv screen or some beefcake's bicep, a taste of unbelievably fresh fish or imperfect, slightly hard rice unlike what I’ve grown accustomed to. But the pangs are less melancholy and more like fond remembrances. I feel comfortable with my return to south carolina and to my family in a way that Id hoped to. The timing of my exit from japan was perfect in a sense; there long enough to rack up an incredible experience and a mental album full inspiring and breathtaking snap shots, but not so long as to have grown weary of the intensity of living overseas or the things that are inextricably part of Japanese culture and society. Contentment.

I toyed with the idea of letting this blog expire along with my stint in japan. I’m still in limbo. I’m staying extremely busy reclaiming a role in this society, leaving little time to type. I suspect that losing an outlet such as this will wrinkle my well being, will adversely affect my creativity. Writing is so cathartic. We’ll see.