maybe we should just amputate

so i recently went out with a couple young doctors i met while in the hospital. [i have a small crush on one of 'em but i've been unable to ascertain whether he's single. i'm doubting he's available because he's intelligent, sexy, wealthy and 35. in this society, if you're pushing 30 and you're single, you're the talk of the neighborhood, something must be wrong with you, all your elders are pressuring you, etc. so for now i'll just hang out, talking english with him while drooling.] they are both orthopedic surgeons so of course they inquired about my hand. their reaction was not positive. apparently i have some extreme flexor tendon contraction, possibly due to scar tissue. they said something will have to be done to correct it, possibly more surgery. when i covertly questioned my dr. at the hospital the next day, he said we must wait two more weeks, so there is no possibility of re-rupturing the tendon, before we begin really aggressive therapy. check out my new device...

even though this thing is attempting to wrench my thumb straight, this is the best i can do...

do i even need to tell you how frustrating this is?